CONFESSIONS OF A NBSB

As I looked back with the feelings I had I can't believe that I'd be both happy and sad I had these emotions all rising above But I know for certain, they all equate to love. I was thinking of the first time I ever had a crush Too bad it's a cousin who made me feel the rush As a child I really felt it was a sin to have that But what can I do? Guess Cupid's a lil brat! As I try to forget that sinful delight I saw fifth grade as a source of what's right I had my first crush at school by then But I really can't tell you exactly what went. When I knew for certain that I liked the kid He transferred school after grad instead I was left all alone by him not knowing That I, in actuality, even felt such thing. Then I reached high school tryin' to forget something That these puppy loves and crushes do bring But I was jerked once more when something developed I had another crush for the guy next stop. Reminding myself that it's not goin' anywhere I tried to stop thinking that for him I do care Then I met someone from somewhere away I believed he's my soulmate with no reasons to say. Then another feeling which I thought was most amazing Struck me during my junior year of schooling I never really adored a person like this before So how it feels really marks until now in my world. That feeling of first love, I must admit, is so strong That even until now it's really hard to move on But that didn't stop me from bein' attracted to other guys It'd been my way of coping for the emptiness inside. So when I reached college, I fancied more men And I think my crushes went up to more than ten I got easily attracted to guys on my standard But I still can't get over that "pretty wild card". The hard truth is, I have so much love to give But neither pushed the button that says "Thanks, I received!" So everyone just gets to be good friends with me And up until now, I'm so much single and free. I don't wanna sound a hypocrite or whatever I just can't help but think: when will this get better? As someone normal, I feel that something's still lacking I sometimes ask when can I have that loving feeling?!? >>Adopted Frog<<